April 14, 2004

• Sigh of Relief

  
  

  Well, everyone who told me to stop worrying about the bankruptcy was right.  We had our hearing this afternoon and it's all over with.  None of the scenarios that I was having nightmares about took place.  I wasn't told that I had to sell myself into indentured servitude to pay the debt.  We didn't even get a lecture about funancial irresponsibility.  It was relatively painless all things considered.  I am SO glad to have debt behind me and a clean slate before me.  Things that have been looming for months are resolving themselves one after the other.  Pretty soon, I won't have anything at all to sit around a stew about. 

  
  

  I spoke with my attorney on Monday, and as I had feared, they were planning to date the divorce next week, on the 20th.  That's Tim's birthday.  So I asked that he speak with the court clerk and hold off entering it into the record until the following Monday.  In the grand scheme of things having the divorce be final on his birthday might one day be funny - but probably never to me. 

  
  

  Now it's just down to details.  I have to pack up my house and get ready for the move in about six weeks.  First, I'm moving everything except the clothes we can fit into our luggage into storage.  The boys and I will spend about 6 weeks in  Arkansas with my parents.  Then I'm going to Colorado Springs to start looking for work.  My cousin has graciously invited us to stay in her home.  Okay, more than that - my cousin hired a contractor to turn her basement into an apartment for me and the kids and issued the invitation for us to live there for as long as it takes until I feel I'm comfortably on my feet.  So I'm looking Westward with high hopes for our future.  I think the boys are starting to catch a bit of moving fever as well.  Tucker asked me just now if I could find us a house where we would have neighbors.  Yes, I think I can.

  
  

  Now that the date of my nightmares has come and gone, maybe I can get back to focusing on really important stuff, like finding a summer reading list.  I did have one book that I had high hopes for, it looked good on the shelf, sounded good on the back cover, and the writing appeared to be crisp and lively so I picked it up.  It's called "A Sideways Look at Time" by Jay Griffiths.  I wanted to like it.  Oh, I really really wanted to like the book described by Pulitzer Prize-winning poet, Gary Snyder as "an exercise in Dharma, Poetry, and Philosophy."  I'm still looking for any sign of any of those three.  Instead of Dharma it's Pagan Dogma (and I'm sorry, just because it's Pagan doesn't make it any more patalable than any other brand of dogma out there).  Instead of poetic, it's pedantic.  Instead of philosophical treatise, it's fantastical leaps of illogic.  I was determined to hang in there until I got to the chapter in which she tries to demonstrate that Princess Di was a modern myth.  I won't bore you with details but the rhetorical stretches are nothing short of stupefying. 

  
  

  I actually still have two chapters to go, but I don't think I'll be finishing this one.  Come to think of it, maybe I should thank Ms Griffiths for the quality napping while I was out of town ... No, that would be unkind.  I'm going back to the book I accidentally left behind when I took my trip. 

  
  

  Happy Hump day everyone. 

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