Month: April 2002

  • I think I must be the happiest person on Xanga.  I love the comments that you guys leave.  I don't often respond in the comments section, but I read them all and think about your ideas and perspectives.  It's amazing how much I learn that way.


    I so appreciated blankity-blank and grioghair's comments from yesterday that I think they are each going to have a blog dedicated to the points they raised.


    Unfortunately, this morning I have a sick child.  Yuck.  So it may be a while before I can get around to visiting your sites today and doing any writing.  Brace yourself Fugitive - these worthy gentlemen have me thinking things that will cause you to have to lie down. 

  • Faith, Hope, and Evidence


    It never hurts to know what you're talking about when you sit down to write an essay.  Sometimes, I get ahead of myself a little.  So I thought it might be fun to go to my dictionary and see what I could learn about some words that I like to use.


    Faith (fayth) n. reliance or trust in a person or thing


    Evidence (ev-i-dens) n. anything that establishes a fact or provides reason to believe something


    Last week I defined faith off the top of my head as "belief based on evidence".  From the definitions I found in my handy dandy Oxford American Dictionary - I see that my definition was a tautology.  It is impossible to separate belief from evidence if evidence is anything that provides a reason to believe.


    I think that we have grown accustomed to a much narrower view of evidence.  We think of evidence as being limited to the material exhibits offered in a court of law.  Or we may think of evidence as the result of a particular scientific experiment or mathematical equation.  But evidence includes far more than than these.  For example, behavior constitutes evidence.  If I say that I have an agreement with you to pay x amount for a particular item, and you cash my check for that amount, our behavior testifies to our agreement even though there is no written contract.


    In my comments section last week, someone quoted the Bible verse, "Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."  In what way does faith, an abstract concept, constitute substance or provide a reason to believe?  Faith becomes substantive when it is translated into action.  Faith goes beyond intellectual assent to a proposition.  I can say all day long that I believe something to be true, but the only way I can prove that I believe it is to act on my belief.


    We hear people all the time who say they believe one thing but prove through their actions that they believe another.  We even have sayings that reflect our awareness of this principle, "put your money where your mouth is, put up or shut up" - I'm sure you can think of more and better examples.  I can say all day long that I believe my chair wil support my wieght, but if I never sit on the chair my lack of action calls into question whether I ever believed my statement.


    With every experience our attitudes are either confirmed or challenged.  When our attitudes are challenged we need to examine the belief that underlies that attitude.  Have we misplaced our faith?  Or have we misinterpreted the principle?  Have we imagined a cause and effect relationship where none truly exists?  Is it a general principle that we've tried to apply to a specific circumstance?  How many times have parents in Christian churches heard the proverb "train up a child in the way he should go and when he is old he will not depart from it."  Not only the Bible but modern psychology endorses this principle.  In general, children will live in accordance with the way they were taught and raised.  But the Bible never promises that a particular child will behave in a particular way.  On the contrary, the Bible teaches that individuals make their own choices and that every person has free will.  The parent who blames God for his or her child's rebellion, has chosen to misinterpret complementary spiritual principles.


    It may be in there, but I've never found a verse in the Bible that says, "Leave the thinking up to someone else, just feel confident that everything will work out."  I have found a verses that say "love the Lord with all your heart, soul, MIND, and spirit", "come let us REASON together," "always be prepared to give the REASON for the hope you have." 


    Faith is not a blind emotional state conjured up as armor against harsh reality.  Faith is the reasonable and willful consistency between our actions and values.  Faith is not grounded in desire for the future, it is rooted in past experience. 

  • Butterfly Time


    Monarch butterflies have an interesting life cycle.  Butterflies born in early summer have an expected life span of 45-65 days.  Butterflies born in late summer migrate south and survive through the winter so they have a life expectancy in the range of 240-270 days.  There is no genetic difference between those born in early and late summer, they may even be offspring of the same parents.


    What would it be like to know that you and all your peers had a life expectancy that was at best only about 1/3 the life expectancy of the generation that would come after you?  I don't know that I'd handle it well.  But I think I could handle that better than being a part of the long-lived generation.  The guilt of knowing that the lucky accident of my birthdate granted me triple the days of the previous hatching would keep me up nights.


    None of us know how many days we have.  But, I think that for most of us, faced with the prospect of losing someone we love, or seeing our own life end, there is no comfort in the fact that humans can expect to live an average of 26,645 days give or take.  I found a life expectancy calculator here that suggests that I may have a few more that the average number of days coming to me.  According to the statistical assessment of my risk factors, I can expect to have 33,580 days of life and reasonably good health.  I was wrong.  I don't feel guilty that the numbers look to be in my favor.  I just wish that all those numbers were higher.


    Compared to the time granted to a butterfly, humans have an embarrassment of riches.  But I expect that whether we are butterflies or people, we'd all like one more day.

  • A Tale of Critters and Friends



    Simone - Critter #1


    My dog thinks she's Tucker's boss.  Nevermind that Simone weighs about 3 pounds and the force that can confine Tucker long enough to get a precise weight has not been discovered.  Simone thinks she's the boss. 



    Tucker - Critter #2 (Note the blurred feet - that's because the kid even jumps while playing nintendo)


    I know she thinks she's boss because I see her trying to herd him a dozen times a day.  I also know this because I hear Tucker saying, "Simone, you are not the boss of me!" a dozen times a day.  If I still had doubts about their relationship, I would know she thinks she's boss because Simone bit him on the butt when he wouldn't move out of her sunbeam so she could nap in peace.


    I need a vacation.  Or, maybe I just need the SIMS vacation.  I have been resisting the urge to buy this expansion pack because I really NEED to get the air-conditioning in my van fixed . . .


    Dalene asked, "who is Darrell?"  Everybody needs a Darrell.  He listens to my weird questions, never suggests that I've lost my mind, and lets me borrow books from his extensive library even though I keep them for months on end.  He describes himself the same way the heretic Pelagius (sp?) was described, as a short fat guy with a bad haircut.  I don't know if it's the description or his self-identification with a heretic that makes me laugh more.  He and his wife both occasionally read my site here.  AND, although he's a pastor, he has resisted the temptation to use me as a sermon illustration.


    Simone needs a Darrell.  She needs someone to convince her that it isn't what Tucker does that will make her a good dog, it's the way she responds to him.  I'd say that Darrell needs a Tucker, except I like the guy and I'd just as soon keep him as a friend.


    Darrell maintains a website on Radical Christianity.  Since I don't have a photo, that's the only way I can introduce him to you.

  • My 7 year old wrote a poem . . .


    muck, muck
    splash
    splash
    funp, fump
    pahm, pam


    fun


    mud


    sing about it.


    We planted seeds, some plants, and a new rose bush yesterday.  It was a beautiful day in Salem, Indiana.  The sun was shining, the birds were singing.  (I stopped in at Darrel's office when we went out to lunch and bummed a book to read this weekend.)  Did I mention we went out to lunch?  And I got a new nightie.  Life was good.  Then this morning, my baby is writing poetry.


    Some people have to drink to feel this high.

  • Why is it that if you offer a child a piece of candy he will dig to the bottom of the bag for one just like the one that was on the top?

  • I may change my name!  Honest!  I've found one I like better.  Try this one out and see what you think . . .


    Terrilyn Beneth


    I've always felt a bit cheated.  Terri Beth just didn't seem quite special enough.  I found this name generator on Yorel's page and I like the result quite well.  How would you pronouce that?  I'm gonna ryhme it with "Marilyn."


    What's yours?


    Isn't it great when you find something new and wonderful?  I have found something new - Kettle Corn.  How many of you people knew about this stuff and never told me?  It's GREAT!  I had it for breakfast yesterday because I couldn't think of anything else I wanted. 


    You know the routine, eggs and sausage are too much trouble and too heavy, not in the mood for cereal, had yogurt yesterday, and besides I'm getting low on grapenuts and yogurt just isn't the same without grapenuts.  So now it's almost 11:00 and I have to have something for breakfast so I can move on to lunch.  I may have it for breakfast again today.  


    Yum.

  • Freedom in Friendship


    When I was in school, my most fascinating classes looked at how it is that people communicate with each other.  There was a kind of fervent positivism in the way these classes were taught.  I think that some of those professors actually believed that if people could just understand each other, they would all agree with each other.


    Guess what, I don't agree.  There is an underlying unity that may be achieved in a relationship when two people understand the messages they are sending.  If I understand your message, I am able to send intelligent and relevant messages back to you regarding your message.  The fact that I understand your message in no way implies that I agree with your message.  The umbrella of friendship covers a huge diversity of opinion.  To me, that's part of what makes friendship fun. 


    Sometimes disagreement isn't seen as diversity.  Some people take it as personal rejection when others aren't able to agree with their precisely expressed message.  Or they take it as a sign that the other person didn't really understand.  These people have the same mindset that my old professors had, they are just certain that understanding will equal agreement.  But, I don't think so.


    There are very good reasons why two people can completely understand each others position and still disagree without implying that either person is deficient in the ability to reason.  We each have a different world view and different experiences on which we draw.  We have different philosophical starting places.  Everyone has to start with a certain set of "givens" but we don't all agree on what the "givens" of reality are.


    I think that the best we can do is to give each other freedom.  We are each entitled to work out our own salvation with fear and trembling (as St. Paul would say).  The more we try to manipulate others emotionally, spiritually, or intellectually, the more we impede their ability to find the truth for themselves. 


    An easy example of this is conversation about religious themes.  When one person knows the way there is an almost overwhelming temptation to insist that those around them step in that exact path.  I think that we could all learn from the example of the spiritually wise who have over and again asserted the truth that each person must seek and find God as an individual.  One of the things that is striking to me about the gospel accounts is the many different ways in which Jesus drew people to himself.  Some he healed, some he touched, some he forgave, and some he called.  I wonder if those he healed ever said to those he forgave, "You need to understand him as I understand him in order to truly understand him."


    "Freedom is not worth having if it does not connote freedom to err. It passes my comprehension how human beings, be they ever so experienced and able, can delight in depriving other human beings of that precious right." Ghandi, 1931

    "Honest disagreement is often a good sign of progress." Ghandi

  • Faith Vs. Superstition


    My neighbor and I had a very interesting conversation the other day.  Her husband was encouraging her to mail a check for $1800.  At the time he said this they had about $300 in the bank.  He's an over-the-road truck driver and its not inconceivable that he could get a load that would pay that amount.  It's unlikely that he would get such a load on a Friday afternoon.  But, he kept telling her that her unwilingness to put the check in the mail showed a lack of "faith."


    This is a definition of faith that drives me up a wall.  It actually isn't faith at all.  It's superstition.  A superstition is "belief in spite of the evidence."  Faith is "belief based on evidence."  There is a huge difference between these two concepts.


    I used to live in Minnesota, but I didn't grow up there.  I grew up in the south where only drunken idiots tried to drive on water.  The first week that I was in Minnesota there was a tragic incident where a group of men drove their truck onto a frozen lake, fell through the ice, and died.  (You don't actually drown in water that cold, hypothermia stops your heart while you are trying to hold your breath.)


    I didn't get why everyone was so upset about this.  That was because I had a completely different frame of reference.  I had no experience with Minnesota lakes in late December.  I didn't know that the ice on these lakes reaches a thickness of 2-3 feet.  In the years that I lived in Minnesota, I got used to seeing the road signs that were erected on area lakes in December and used as shortcuts until March.  Before I left the state nine years later, I understood the surprise and shock when the ice gave way beneath something as inconsequential as a pick-up truck.


    As a transplant from the south, belief that the ice would support the weight of a vehicle seemed gross and negligent supersition to me.  After I had experienced a Minnesota winter with actual air temperatures dropping to -40 for the daily high, I had a different perspective.  I recognized that driving on the ice was a matter of faith.  Belief based on experiential evidence is faith.


    Sometimes faith is misplaced.  The year that I moved North, there was a horrible blizzard on Halloween.  So much snow fell that it "quick-froze" in brittle layers on the water.  Even though the ice appeared to be solid, it wasn't.  The 2.5 foot thickness gave way under weights far less than it was reasonable to expect that it would support.  We all learned something about the nature of ice that winter.  The general rule doesn't always tell the whole story.


    A scientist may have faith in a particular theory.  Under testable circumstances the theory has been shown to offer a consistent explanation of the anticipated and confirmed result.  Quantum physics has shown over the past century that even the theories of hard sciences, physics and chemistry, are subject to an uncomfortable truth.  They are subject to a principle of Indeterminancy, which means that in any given set of experimental circumstances we can only say that there is a set probability of getting a particular result.  We may know that 95% of all atoms will behave in a particular way, but we also know that 5% of them will go off in a different direction, and the really uncomfortable part of the whole Indeterminancy Theory is that we cannot know in advance which atoms will go in which direction.


    In the old world of Newtonian physics, we had reason to believe that under 100% of circumstances known variables plugged into the equation would give us a 100% predictable result.  No physicist making such a claim today would make it through the Doctoral review process.  Today, physicists talk about the difference between a closed system in which it is possible to know all the variables and open systems in which the variables cannot be known because there is always another variable.  (This is a different concept from cosmological discussion of an open vs. closed universe which refers to the debate over whether the universe continues to expand, or is in a steady state.)  They recognize that there are no truly closed systems outside very elaborate laboratory experiments.


    In faith, the scientist can say that given the equations of quantum physics we will get predicted results 95% of the time.  It is superstition to say that the hard sciences offer us a way of comprehending absolutes.  Newtontian physics cover the general rules of cause and effect, but they don't tell the whole story.


    Steven Weinberg is a brilliant man of science.  He won the Nobel Prize for physics in 1979 and the National Medal of Science in 1991.  Dr. Weinberg won his aclaim for unifying two of the four basic physical forces in one theory.  Since then he has been the leading proponent of work toward a theory that would unify all four basic physical forces - the Theory of Supersymmetry - sometimes called the Theory of Everything. 


    There exists no experimental basis for belief that the Theory of Everything refers to anything real.  There is a lot of speculation about superstrings and either 10 or 11 dimensions of reality (six or seven of which collapsed in the first 10 to the -32 part of the first minute of the universe.)  But, there is no proof.  There is no evidence.  The amount of energy required for their existence has not been available since the very early moments of the Big Bang.  There is nothing other than a baseless hope that there might be other dimensions out there on which to build such a theory.  This is not faith.  Because there is a lot of evidence that points to the existence of only 4 dimensions in our reality, it is superstitious to hold a theory which counters that evidence.


    Yet, on the basis of Weinberg's superstitious beliefs about the nature of the universe, he has made a number of statements regarding the purpose and meaning of life.  He wrote in 1977 that humanity is alone in an "overwhelmingly hostile universe."  He holds that scientific activity is the only source of consolation in a meaningless world.  "The more the universe seems comprehensible, the more it also seems pointless."  In a recent book he qualifies that earlier statement.  "I did not mean that science teaches us that the universe if pointless, but only that the universe itself suggests no point."


    Evidence does not rule out meaning as a real element of the universe.  Weinberg's belief in the pointlessness of reality exceeds the evidence.  I criticize my optimistic neighbor's willingness to hold to a superstitious belief that "everything will work out" under immensely improbable circumstances.  I cannot applaud a pessimistic scientist who makes the same mistake.


    Weinberg, Steven, The First Three Minutes, (New York, New York) Basic Books, 1977


    Weinberg, Steven, Dreams of a Final Theory, (New York) Pantheon, 1992


    Weinberg, Steven, Facing Up, (Cambridge, Mass) Harvard University Press, 2001

  • Peace


    For the past couple of months I've had a little greeting html'ed into my page.  'Peace' - I've been thinking of changing that greeting but before I do, I thought I'd like to toss out some thoughts on the subject of Peace.


    Peace - 1. freedom from war 2. treaty ending a war 3. freedom from civil disorder 4. quiet, calm, freedom from anxiety 5. a state of harmony between persons, absence of strife


    I have found that peace is only marginally related to the circumstances of my life.  There have been times when my life's turbulence threatened to wash away all my foundations, but I rode through the rapids with a sense of peace and exhilaration.  At other times the waters were calm and smooth, but I was drowning in anxiety, anger and fear. 


    Peace begins inside me.  When I am at peace with myself, there is no provocation strong enough to rock me off my center.  If I lack inner peace, there is no port calm enough for my ship to rest at anchor.


    Courage is the price that Life exacts for granting peace.
            Amelia Earhart, Courage, 1927


    You can't separate peace from freedom because no one can be at peace unless he has his freedom.
    Malcolm X, Malcolm X Speaks, 1965


    If you want to make peace, you don't talk to your friends. You talk to your enemies.
    Moshe Dayan



    Let tears flow of their own accord: their flowing is not inconsistent with inward peace and harmony.
            Seneca (3 BC - 65 AD)


    Climb the mountains and get their good tidings. Nature's peace will flow into you as sunshine flows into trees. The winds will blow their own freshness into you, and the storms their energy, while cares will drop away from you like the leaves of Autumn.
    John Muir


    Living apart and at peace with myself, I came to realize more vividly the meaning of the doctrine of acceptance. To refrain from giving advice, to refrain from meddling in the affairs of others, to refrain, even though the motives be the highest, from tampering with another's way of life - so simple, yet so difficult for an active spirit. Hands off!
    Henry Miller (1891 - 1980)

     
    Of one thing I am certain, the body is not the measure of healing - peace is the measure.
    George Melton


    First keep the peace within yourself, then you can also bring peace to others.
    Thomas a Kempis (1380 - 1471), 1420


    Nothing can bring you peace but yourself.
    Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803 - 1882)


    We shall find peace. We shall hear the angels, we shall see the sky sparkling with diamonds.
    Anton Chekhov (1860 - 1904), 1897