Hey - waves to the world.
Yes, I'm alive. Sort of. And I'm recovering, mostly.
I am here to tell you that being sleep deprived is no laughing matter. I was seriously messed up. Now I'm just kind of tired, achy and cranky. And given over to my obsessions.
Obsession 1: A House. I want to own a house. NOW. okay, I get that it's not realistic to buy one today, but I'm wanting one so bad I can taste it. I had a disappointing tour with the realtor the other night. We looked at condos where were ... almost within my price range if I stood on my tiptoes and stuck out my tongue just right.
They were nice. Fairly new. Kitchen was small but I thought I could expand it and make it workable. However, the stairs were so narrow and built at a strange turn-the-corner angle that meant I'd never be able to my bed up there.
So now I'm going to plan B which means that I'm not spending anything I don't have to spend on ANYTHING because if I'm going to have a home, I'm going to have to do a little more than stretch, I'm going to have become an NBA Center.
I think I can, I think I can, I think I can ...
Obsession 2: Getting Healthy. (And getting a smaller behind in the process). I've been reading again. Four and a half years ago, I read through all the information I could get on metabolism and human nutrition needs. I came up with a plan.
I figured out that if I consumed less than 800 calories per day, I would lose weight. I was bolstered in my confidence by my doctor who told me, "No one came out of a concentration camp fat ..."
Well, that's true, but what he and I both neglected to consider was that neither did anyone come out of a concentration camp healthy. So yes, I lost weight. In fact, I lost a LOT of weight. Over 100 pounds. And then my heart was beating erratically, my brain was fuzzy as a Palisade Peach, and I found myself in a psychological state where I was more or less terrified of food.
Oh, yeah, and just in case I was so weak as to exceed my daily allotment (which by that point had decreased to about 500 calories) I had a medicine cabinet full of diuretics and laxatives with which I could punish myself.
I wasn't healthy. In fact, I was approaching the point of being much less healthy than I was when I wore size 28 pants.
So with a great deal of well, I'm not sure what the word for it is, but I was so scared that I told my best friends what I was up to knowing that the mere fact that they knew would be enough to keep me from doing it again.
The only problem was that having lost so much weight and so many clothing sizes whetted my appetite to go all the way. Not all the way to the mortuary, that was an unfortunate side trip. I want to go all the way to healthy. To a place where I'm not so worried that my health won't hold out as long as my kids need me to be here for them.
(Which, is a long long time.)
SO, I'm back in the metabolic research business.
I'm pretty sure that there are answers. Answers that will leave me with a lower body fat percentage. Maybe allow me to see my old age with a hope of enough health that I won't be a burden to my kids before I leave this world via some bizarre accident involving a mostly naked Polynesian dancer, an airplane and too much alcohol.
I have some ideas.
I started on a new plan the day after Christmas. I'm not sure yet what the results are going to be, it's too early to know. But I have hope that what I'm learning using myself as a bit of a ... guinea pig ... will prove helpful. So whether my readership plans to try my methods or just keeps reading for the same reason that my best friend took a photo of a wreck between a Hummer and a Porsche. I'm gonna write about it.
And yeah, can you IMAGINE a wreck between a Hummer and a Porsche? That had to be the most expensive thing that those poor insurance adjusters have dealt with in a long time. I'd have taken a photo too. I mean, I'd have felt guilty, but I'd have done it. This is why my best friend is my best friend. We think alike.
So anyway, those are my two obsessions. If I haven't scared you off yet, or totally bored you, I can only say that you are a glutton for punishment. I kind of like that too.
You could easily become Obsession #3.
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