August 12, 2007

• What I want ...

  ... well, thinner thighs and a fatter bank account pop into mind.  Mostly those things are just the automatic answers that float out there all the time.  In truth, I'm experiencing a bone deep contentment with my life right now. 

  I love the place I live and I'm gradually setting up to be home. 
  I love the school the kids will be attending.
  I love the fact that I'm working at something I believe in.
  I love the fact that I have a swimming pool and a work out center in this apartment complex.

  It was in the pool last night that I realized just how happy I am here.  I had a productive day.  I didn't break my neck or my back but I got a lot done.  I fired up the grill and grilled steaks and chicken (enough for us to have leftovers for dinner tonight).  I made blueberry muffins for the boys. (I'd show you but they ate every one of them already.)  And then after I straightened the kitchen, I put on my swim suit and the boys and I went to play in the pool for an hour. 

  Just an hour.  It didn't have to be an all day thing.  It didn't require extreme effort or planning.  We just put on our suits and went.  I swam laps for about 30 minutes.  (And according to Sparkpeople that meant I burnt about 480 Calories, but I'm suspicious of that number, I don't think I was working that hard.  And it doesn't really matter because I'm only tracking calories as a sie note these days.)

  I'm trying to get healthier, and while I'd like it best if that healthier me had thinner thighs, I've already noticed some other iomprovements that I'm very pleased with.  My hair is growing back.  Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I have hair again.  I was under so much stress over the past well, about 10 years ... LOL ... that my hair was just getting thinner and thinner.  It was a source of much denial, many jokes, and a few days of added anguish over it's departure.  But it's coming back now.

  From the length of the new growth I'm guessing it started in May.  May was significant for three events.  I started taking additional supplements so my nutrition is better.  I made the decision to move so Michael would have access to better schools.  I made the decision that no matter what I'd find a way to earn income to support my little family. 

  I'm not sure which of those resulted in the greatest decrease to my stress level, but altogether, they have worked wonders.  Its as though I can feel my blood pressure dropping another point every day.  I'm a happy Momi. 

  So what do I want?  Right now, nothing more than another minute and then another and then another living right where I am, doing exactly what I'm doing, and loving my kids up close and personal for as long as they will let me hug 'em and squeeze 'em and tell 'em mushy Momi things. 

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