August 3, 2006

  • Once upon a time ...

    Finish this sentence, "I'd really like to _______, but _________" What's your wildest dream? I know you have one. Maybe you want to bungee jump off a bridge or parachute down from a perfectly good plane ... Maybe you want to plant an herb garden, or write a song, or a poem, or a novel. Maybe you want to connect with another human being heart to heart instead of role to role. What's your dream?

    Do you just know that if you had a month in an ashram you could connect with your spiritual center? Or maybe (like me) you look wistfully at the Benedictine sisters with their structures, liturgy and prayers. Maybe you have all the spirit you need and you'd like a little more material. Or do you think, if not for the mortgage, the car payment, the kids' contacts ... I could set aside more each month and retire from this day job to pursue my passions?

    Come on, no one's looking. Its just you and me. What's your wildest dream? I know you have one.

    There are aspects of my life that seemed far beyond "wildest dream" status five years ago. (I've been thinking a lot about five years ago because that's when I began my blog on Xanga and I can look back to what I was doing then and see how far I've come.) I don't know that I wanted these things back then. I know that many things I've done would have scared my socks off if I'd known they were coming.

    And I'm not going to use my life as any kind of example ... "I made a million dollars and YOU CAN TOO ... just send me $59.95 ..." nope I'm not selling snake oil today. I just wonder what kinds of things you are allowing to hold you back. What kinds of things do you have the courage to let go of or grab onto? You know what I'm talking about, the courage that comes from you don't have a choice so you might as well dig down and just do it.

    Well, all I want to say to you today, is that you HAVE the courage. You have the dream. And if you don't make your dreams come true, who will?

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    I am taking several days "off" this week to feed my inner artist. (like the way that sounds?) Julia Cameron calls it having artist dates. Doing things that make you happy, make you feel child-like, make you see things from a little different perspective.

    Yesterday, I bought a strand of fluorite that I will use to make a necklace.
    Today, I bought fresh berries for lunch.
    Yesterday, I drove down streets I've never driven before.
    Today, I took a NAP - in the Middle of the Day.
    Later, I plan to experience a poem I've never known before.

    I've discovered a new pleasure. Its a shampoo/conditioner I get at Sally's Beauty Supply, it's the knock-off of Nioxin, but that stuff is expensive. This stuff is called Nutri-ox, or something like that. Anyway, it has peppermint oil in it. It's supposed to stimulate your scalp and make people with thinning hair feel like they are doing something to promote hair growth. I haven't noticed that my hair is any less thin, but the peppermint oil, it's fabulous. It makes my scalp tingle, and my hair feels soft and smooth. I washed my hair with this stuff today - twice. Early this morning, and again after my nap, just because I can. In my wildest most extravagant dream I never thought I'd wash my hair twice in one day just for the pleasure of it.

    I'm not sure our dreams really are that wild when you come right down to it. I think that we are human beings who long to live our live to the fullest. And our dreams show us the gate to get where we are supposed to be.

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  • Travel.  I want to travel and see the world.  I want to get in a van with my family and drive all over the U.S. experiencing the natural wonders.  And then I want to get in a jet and travel to Hawaii to begin with as I was there in high school and LOVED it.  And then I just want to go and go and go....

  • The last time I tried to get through the gate to what I saw as my dream, it was slammed on me repeatedly by the one who ran me flat over getting to what was on the other side. After dusting off, and looking at what was really a nightmare, not a dream at all, I think I'm better off where I am. For sure I look very closely before I try any new gates, you never know when that dream you think you're in can become the nightmare from hell.

  • Travel - YES! that's a wonderful dream ... I have that one too, Rainydame. And I'd also like to make a trip to Hawaii.

    Cheryl - your point is well made that sometimes you just can't tell before you step through the gate whether it would be a dream or a nightmare. I guess I'm optimistic because my experience led me to expect a nightmare and I found a dream, but you know (I hope you know) that I fully understand and appreciate that it could easily have been as you described.

  • I'd really like to take more naps, but they keep expecting me to go to work.

    Oddly enough, I was thinking about wildest dreams today, and reflecting that I never really had any very wild ones. I wanted to be a novelist before I realized my writing is all style and no content. Now, I don't know if I even have any tame dreams....

  • My best friend Jim, and his family just moved to Thailand (this week) where they will be staying for two years. I would love to be able to go visit them, but financially it's not liable to happen.

    My dad and my oldest brother have both been to Thailand, and absolutely LOVE it. So it's been a place that I've long wanted to visit. Having Jim & Jane there is just more incentive to want to go.

  • I would love to be able to earn money from being creative which I already enjoy immensely in the small way that I do it, in order to widen my horizons and embrace more opportunities to share what I encounter. BUT I don't want to corrupt the 'flow' with money being the object. Ideally that would be a reward, a perk, a pleasant enablement to go further equipment & travel & home (and thus peace?) - wise.

    Generally, I am content but is discontent good in this context? I think so. 

  • I wandered here because Zimbo recommended your site. He is right. It is a nice site.
    hmmmmm

    I'd really like to have someone special to love and someone who would love me, but there is something about me that keeps women away.

    Ok, I played. But I don't really want to talk about that statement any more than what you read.

    Have a wonderful Friday.

  • I do dream....but I dream the impossible.  My dream involves me consuming large quantities of crumbled chocolate and peanutbutter cups on top of soft-serve ice cream WITHOUT caloric repercussions. 

    Seriously though....I'd want to live more on the edge....I'd like to be a librarian.

  • The best thing about your shampoo is that your giving yourself the gift of time for yourself and are open to recieve from the unuverce. I am so lucky, every day, 24/7 I am able to do just what I want to do and be totally selfish about it.

    My age and circumstances has set me free for the first itme in my life. P.N.

  • Yeah, living your dream is hard, but worth it.  I am trying to.  I wake up every day with that intention.

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