August 31, 2003

  • Deep Thinking


    I'd like to be thinking deep thoughts, writing provocative blogs.  This time a year ago I was happily wallowing in questions of Ultimate Reality, epistemology, freedom, responsibility, feminism, and faith.  Today, I can barely conceive a topic more substantial than cotton candy.  I feel like I've been sprinkled with pixie dust.  When I read my daily dose of Kierkegaard, I found myself thinking, what a cute, funny, silly guy this is ...  o_0


    Over the past six months I have reached a level of acceptance and appreciation of myself that I have never felt before in my life.  I'm downright integrated!  Whole, complete, perfect!  How did this happen?  How did it happen when I least expected it? 


Comments (31)

  • What a wonderful feeling to be at peace with yourself, who you are, and where you're at.   Beautiful picture, too.

  • So, are you gonna share the recipe??? :smile: -- Lise

  • :femmeblk: :moon: :femmeblnd:

  • :hammer:

  • :peace:

  • Kierka-what?

    jester

  • What a beautiful picture!!

  • Things just happen I guess.

    {{{Warm hugs}}},

    Rich

  • It's like finding love with someone else. You can't find it when you are searching and hunting for it. When you release the quest...that's when it comes your way. That's when you find the love you were waiting for. Loving yourself, I would assume, is the same.

  • Maybe you asked, and then received?   :idunno:  You did some seeking?   :idunno:  Did you do any knocking?   :frustrated:  I bet you did.....   :bow:

  • No, wait, I know, I know.  You turned 40, didn't you?  Yep, that's it.  That would explain it. You're 40 and fabulous. :eyes_wink:

  • All these little smiley things give me a freakin headache.

    It is when we focus on the whole that we find the part we seek.

    Sail on... sail on!!!

  • that is a great feeling..i found it when I met the man I now can call my husband.

  • Pixie dust and a dash of Kierkegaard...Hmmmm yah, that would make me think of cotton candy too. :snicker:

  • I am so happy for you - what a blessing to have found that kind of peace with yourself. I'm still on the journey (I'm in my late 20's so I guess it's normal).

    Many of your journal entries here are so inspirational - you are passing on the peace you've found to others in ways you probably don't even realize. So, thanks for that!  :innocent:

  •  :bow:

    have you read Ayn Rand (The Fountainhead)? great stuff. it's all about the love you experience now.

  • Being at peace is a wonderful thing.. :innocent:

  • This is so awesome that you are feeling your life is complete!  You are a wonderful persona dn you deserve it no doubt!

    Thank you for your sweet comment on my site!  I can't tell you what it means to me to have the support of my xanga friends.  I know it will get me through.  Also, as much as it's a little of a downer on my birthdays now I wouldn't take anything for sharing that day with my dad for 25 years! 

  • Isn't that what growing is?

    We find ourselves out of deep reflection?? I hope to someday "grow" into a thin woman. I just have to make the commitment first.

    It is hard, but I know I will do it when it is time. I just want it to be now!

    Take care,

    Tina

  • Cheering for you as you hold my hand.  heh  I'm comin', Terri - it's just taking a while. 

  • It sounds as if you have met your Jungian archetype--and she is you.

  • I've always described that feeling as "monolithic"--being so whole that I just felt like, finally, I was all of a piece.

    That didn't make any sense, did it?   :eyeroll:  Anyhow, I'm glad you're feeling that!  Enjoy the cotton candy.

  • You have achieved what some people look for all their lifetime and never find.  Bless you and continue to share those thoughts with us readers!

  • A good answer lies in the book Siddartha by Herman Hesse. Although it's and "Eastern religion" book, the central though is valid. "It was there all along, but you don't discover it until after your journey." Mike

  • Not me. Still searching. Still not intergrated. Still pissed off. Still wondering if this is all there is....

  • Care to share your secret?  I think most of us are looking to be at peace with ourselves and I think it's beautiful that you've come to that state.  Congratulations!  (and don't worry, I've always found Kierkegaard a little on the silly side! :cool:)

  • Glad to hear the currents are carrying you to a place of joy and peace.  I think if it as Grace - a gift.  And a gift can't be earned, only unwrapped. 

    However, a buddhist friend of mine frames such spontaneous achievements of spiritual maturation as the result of past karma ripening and cautions the continuation of the practices that first produced that karma so that we don't "run out" of good karma and wind up in suffering again.

    I don't know which of us is right, but wanted to share both points of view.

  •  :clap: :bow: I think I need some of your pixie dust, cause I ain't feelin that way atall.  Glad you are though.     :peace:  Love these smileys of yours.  :smile:  I hope the feeling lasts and lasts, like the energizer bunny! :wink:

    hugs gf,

         Deb

  • Oh yes, and that is a beautiful sunset pic.  I am really into those in case you hadn't noticed.  I love the way God paints us such a site at day's end.

    Deb again *waving bye*

  • Hmmm........is the implication here that the truly integrated cannot think deep thoughts?? ;-D  Nonsense, of course -- the depth of your thoughts comes through even in the most passing of comments.  I do remember stumbling upon you during that deep-thought period last year, though.  I was bowled over.  I still am.

  • oooooh!  How Gestalt!  Wonderful!

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