Month: November 2002

  • Have I Mentioned ...


    I really didn't mean the post of Nov 8 to be the last will and testament of Quiltnmomi.  Talk about sobering.  I thought I'd be writing all kinds of witty posts on the process of family visits, novel writing, and observation of Southernisms.  Instead, it's been two weeks and this is my first opportunity to post.


    I'm still in Arkansas.  I'm still waiting to hear when we will finally close the loan on the refinancing deal.  My cold is gone, my sinuses are cleared, and my rear end has expanded by at least 5 pounds in the past three weeks.


    Usually, I can find time during a visit to the folks to check in fairly regularly with Xanga and email.  This time around, everytime I turn my head something gets broken, trashed, or otherwise abused.  I don't know what has gotten into the boys.  My kids (plus Fugitive's sons) seem to be competing with each other for impressive disaster points.  I have not added more than about 5000 words to my novel since my arrival here.    But, I WILL simply declare that December is LoNoWriMo (Local novel Writing Month) and I'll finish it up when I get home.


    So tonight I had a quick minute (the family thinks I'm in here typing directions to Tim so he can drive down tomorrow.)  And yes, yes, yes! I'm on Xanga!  Whooo HOooooo!


    Come hell or high water - I'll be driving back home on December 6 and I'll be commenting on all your sites like the Addicted Xanga fiend I am.  In the meantime, I wish you a very Happy Thanksgiving.


    And for those of you who asked - here's my


    Sweet Potato Pie Recipe:


    Crust: Standard pie crust prebaked.


    Filling: 1 1/2 c cooked sweet potatoes, thoroughly mashed
              3/4 c brown sugar
              1/2 c whipping cream
              1 t vanilla
              1/2 t pumpkin pie spice
              4 eggs + 1 egg yolk beaten


    Fill the pie crust and bake for 15 minutes on 350 F.  Then remove from oven and add topping.


    Topping: 1/2 c flour
                 3 T melted butter
                 1 egg white
                 1/2 c chopped pecans


    Return to oven and  bake 20 minutes more.


    This pie is rich, but I still serve it with whipped cream dollops. 

  • Sweet Potato Pie


    I have arrived in Arkansas.  And talking about your basic cliff hanger!  Right before I left, I got a call from the mortgage company, they've come up with a way to do the loan at the interest rate I wanted, and I don't have to pay mortgage insurance - they want to close it on the 22nd.  I'm four states away.  I know I'm four states away because my children kept a careful count of them as we drove yesterday.  SOOOOOO - I suppose I could fly back to Indiana on the 21st, leave my kids here with Fugitive, have a great weekend with my husband, and then return to Arkansas on the 24th to resume my visit ....


    Of course, that would mean using part of the mortgage payment that I won't have to make in December to pay off the plane ticket, but I think I'm about to talk myself into it.  I'm sure that Fugitive won't mind. 


    As I was driving yesterday, I was tuned in to NPR.  (I love NPR) so I was listening to All Things Considered when they mentioned that this is National Novel Writing Month and described the challenge.  Made me feel like I was a part of something important.    In other news, the word count has not increased in the past two days, BUT I have had plenty o'time to ponder plot points.  I've answered a couple of the  questions that came up in those first writings.  For instance I NOW know who that third guy was the night that they came for Jonathon.  See what I mean about characters who won't cooperate though?  I started that scene planning to have a dead Jonathon Grace by the end, but now he's not only escaped, he's running around the midwest getting into all sorts of mischief.  I know that Occam's Razor is a good rule of thumb for logic (the simplest explanation is usually the best) but with this novel writing thing, the more complicated it gets the more I enjoy the writing.


    So what am I doing on the computer on a Friday night while I'm on vacation with the family?  Hiding.  Mom, Dad, and Fugitive have gone out for an aerobic walking excursion.  I'm feeling as though my head may explode from the congestion that has developed in the past 2 days.  Oh, yes, I have a nasty cold.  I realized late Wednesday evening that I wasn't feeling so well, I could have cancelled or postponed the trip, but then I wouldn't have the opportunity to share my good fortune (plus I wouldn't have the excuse to leave my kids FOUR states away so I could have a weekend with my husband.)


    .... and shut my mouth.

  • On the road again -


    Years ago I started writing a book that I never finished.  It was about a fellow who traveled back in time, then there was an accident and he was stranded, and he freaked out because he was scared of disease in the time of no antibiotics.  It was kind of fun until I got bogged down in the meddle and couldn't resolve the plot problems.  Fugitive got hooked reading the work-in-progress and has been mad at me ever since.


    I'm going to her house, where she has promised that I WILL keep up the word count on the current book.  She's offered ice cream as encouragement, and threatened that I'll be in charge of a four boy sleep-over if I slack off.


    I'm working already!


    Thank you for the encouragement on the snipet I posted yesterday.  Since I'm out of pocket today, I'm offering another excerpt from the writing I did last Saturday.  Please keep in mind as you peek at these bits that the point of NaNoWriMo is to turn out massive word counts without getting bogged down in editing.  I know this will need a lot of editing down the road. 


    Helen Pierce was running late. She checked her outfit in the mirror at the bottom of the stairs and noticed a stain on the side of her skirt. Of course, since she just dropped her laundry at the cleaners last night there were limited options for a change. At least it was casual Friday, khaki’s wouldn’t be out of place.


    After dressing for a second time, she was too late for breakfast. She threw a nutrition bar into her briefcase without a glance at the coffeepot. No sense sighing over what she couldn’t have.


    It wasn’t her week to drive, but Jonathon was having some kind of problem with his car. He usually met her outside the garage, but she didn’t see him when she backed onto the driveway. She wondered if he’d had his coffee this morning. He didn’t like coffee as well as she did, but sometimes he brought travel mugs for each of them. She wished she were the kind of person who ran on a nice comfortable schedule. The office brew tasted faintly of soap, so she refused to drink it. She was lucky to get good coffee more than once or twice in one week. Jonathon had suggested that she could set up her pot the night before, so her coffee would always be ready when she got up, but after the coffee had been sitting there all night, it wasn’t any better than the stuff at the office.


    She glanced at her watch and thought how odd that they were both late on the same day. In three years, she could only remember one other time he had been late. When she decided to buy the townhouse next door as an investment property, she worried about how she might handle difficult tenants, but Jonathon was the perfect renter. He didn’t throw parties. In fact, as far as Helen knew he didn’t even drink beer. He was quiet. He didn’t ask her to hire expensive labor for things he could fix himself. They drove together to the office where she worked as a human resources manager and he was a computer programmer.


    She drummed her fingers on the dash, fidgeted with the mirror and changed the radio station to the least offensive morning show. Drive time deejays should be shot, she thought. All that perkiness couldn’t possibly be good for the body. A more sedate speaker delivered the weather and traffic reports, but when the host began to parody a song that she didn’t like to start with, she turned it off. A glance at her watch told her that almost ten more minutes had passed.


    Maybe Jonathon had overslept? It only took a second to decide the car shouldn’t be left idling. She shivered her way back up the walk and picked up the newspaper still lying by the step. When she knocked on his door, it swung open.


    The scene in Jonathon’s living room looked like the opening shot of a police drama. Brownish red splatters stained the carpet. A chair from the dining room and scattered papers lay in silence. Helen stood with her hand still upraised as she looked inside. Slowly she craned her head side to side looking for her neighbor. No regular viewer of 'Law and Order' would make the mistake of stepping across the threshold. "Jonathon?" He was nowhere in sight, and he didn’t answer her call.


    While she waited for the police, Helen went to the kitchen. She measured eight full cups of water, instead of her usual two, and reached past the decaf for regular beans. The coffee hadn’t quite finished dripping when she heard the siren, but it seemed it had been a long time.


    Another siren sounded in the distance, the curious sing song pattern of notes weaving ever closer. An ambulance stopped in the street beside the police car and two EMT’s carried a stretcher into the house. Another car pulled next to the curb in front of the ambulance. Helen vaguely noticed masculine figures emerging from it, but her attention was fixed on the door of Jonathon’s home.


    She didn’t recognize any of the officers she saw that day. How odd that she could have lived in Louisville her entire life and know so many people, but not know the men who came that morning. Perhaps it wasn’t reasonable to expect that she would know them, but after seeing the blood Jonathon’s floor, she didn’t care about reason, she wanted a familiar face.


    "Mrs. Pierce? I’m officer, McPherson." He held a clipboard with a notebook. "Could you tell me what you saw?"


    "There isn’t much to tell." She took a deep breath. "I waited for Jonathon, that’s Mr. Grace, my neighbor. His first name is Jonathon. He didn’t show up, and that’s just not like him. He’s never late for anything, he never pays late rent, he never sleeps in on the weekend, he’s never sick. He’s a nice guy. I’ve been inside his townhouse a couple times since he moved in, but didn’t see a lot of expensive stuff, so I can’t imagine why anyone would rob him. I suppose he does have a nice computer, he’s a programmer, isn’t it a rule that computer people have to have great systems for their personal use? I went to knock on his door, found it open, saw a mess and something that looked like blood you know?" she paused expectantly but the officer didn’t even nod to confirm her suspicion. "So I came back here and called 911. Would you like some coffee?"


    "No, thank you" he waved aside the offer and closed his notebook. "I think that tells me what I need to know for now. I’m sure the detective will want to talk with you later. We’d like it if you could hang around this morning, is that a problem?"


    "No, I’ve already called my assistant. Barb will call me if there’s anything she can’t handle."


    "That’s good then. Thank you, Mrs. Pierce. You’ve been very helpful."


    Once Officer McPherson left, Helen’s need to see a familiar face began to grow. Margo was a great best friend, but not much use in a crisis. She was probably serving soft drinks and scotch to nervous passengers about now. "Please turn off all cell phones while the plane is in the air . . . return trays to an upright position … in case of a water landing, your seat can be used as a flotation device."


    "I need a dog," she said aloud. "I could talk to a dog. A dog wouldn’t be on a shuttle to St. Louis."


    She stood and looked out the window with her arms hugged across her chest. Where was Jonathon? She hadn’t heard any unusual noise last night. Surely if someone had hurt him, he would have knocked on her door, or shouted for help or something. If someone broke in and killed him, where was his body? Maybe the substance on the carpet wasn’t blood. Maybe he tripped over his chair in the dark, spilled a handful of papers, and … broke a bottle of ketchup. She stopped. That didn’t make any sense.


    By now several police cars and a van were parked out front. Men and women in latex gloves carried tackle boxes inside. Helen dusted her furniture, and looked out the window. Watered her plants, and looked out the window. Vacuumed the living room even though it didn’t need vacuumed, and looked out the window.


    The growling of her stomach finally drove her to the kitchen. While leftover kung pao chicken warmed, she took out a bowl and spoon. The timer on the microwave dinged and she reached in to stir the food. The white carton spun around again.


    "Ding!"


    It took a second for her to realize that this bell was from the door, not the oven.


    A nondescript man in jeans and a rumpled tee shirt stood at her door.


    "Hello?" she said.


    "Mrs. Pierce?"


    "Yes, I mean, no, it’s not Mrs., I’m Helen Pierce."


    "I’m David Anderson, Louisville Police Department." He showed her a detective’s shield. "I understand you made the 911 call this morning."


    "Yes, Jonathon didn’t show up for carpool."


    "Ms. Pierce, I’m sorry to have to tell you this. There’s a body inside the house. Can you identify it for us?"


    "Oh, God, he’s dead." She put a trembling hand over her eyes.


    "Is he, I mean, is it bad?" She stopped, "That’s a stupid question isn’t it. There isn’t any such thing as good when your neighbor gets killed."


    "I’ll be right beside you, they have the body on a stretcher now. All you have to do is look at his face."


    "Okay, Detective, what did you say your name was?"


    "It’s Anderson, David Anderson."


    He didn’t touch her, he probably wasn’t even standing close to her, but Helen felt that all the space, all the air around her was taken up and sucked away. Each step toward the door of Jonathon’s house took effort. An invisible wall of resistance seemed to have grown up on the lawn in the past few hours. Or maybe the wall had grown inside her.


    Fear that Jonathon was dead had been pushed down and held at bay since she first saw the mess in his house. Now that her fear was confirmed it pushed back with vengeance, almost paralyzing her.


    Detective Anderson led her to a gurney with the ubiquitous black bag she’d seen so many times on television. She hadn’t ever noticed how horrible and impersonal those bags were. No one should ever be zipped inside plastic like so much garbage.


    The EMT opened the upper portion. At first all she could see was red. She thought maybe she was going to faint, then realized she really was seeing red. Red hair. Jonathon didn’t have red hair. She shook her head and looked at the face.


    "I’ve never seen this man before."

  • The American Way


    Did you vote?  I worked a lesson on govrnment and the American voting process into my homeschool yesterday, then I took my children to the polls.  They weren't very interested at first, but I explained that we are a nation under law and that people make our laws.  So if we want good laws, laws that will help make our lives better, we have to pay attention to what the candidates say.


    We had an example, Candidate number 1 wants to make a law that all Mommies should feed their children spinach three times a day.  Candidate number 2 wants to make a law that says all Mommies should take their children to Disneyworld at least once a year.


    All of a sudden, voting took on an importance they had previously not recognized.


    When we arrived at our polling place, (for us it's a tin garage with a wood stove) there were election workers, but no other voters.  The kids were surprised and shocked.  "Mom where are all the people?"


    "Well, it's raining and very cold today, maybe they are waiting, hoping it will clear up later."


    "What if it doesn't clear up?  Are they just not going to vote?"


    "Some people probably won't."


    Michael thought about that for a minute. "Do you think they don't know that the people on the ballot are going to make our laws?"


    "They know son, but for some people they'd rather leave the decision up to someone else than risk getting cold and wet."


    "I think we should vote that the people who don't vote have to eat spinach three times a day.  Maybe by the next election they'll feel strong enough to come out in the rain."


    NaNoWriMo Report


    Thank you - thank you all for coming around and giving me encouragement.  This writing a novel is both more fun and more frustration than I was expecting.  When I'm not at the computer writing, I'm frutrated because I have ideas popping into my head, non-stop.  When I sit down to write, I'm frustrated because the ideas choose that moment to take a nap.


    I don't know much about the process of writing a novel.  I don't know if there's a way you are "supposed" to structure the story and plot in detail beforehand, or if you should just sit down and go for it even without all the questions worked out.  (I suspect the latter, although I keep thinking that people who get a nice tidy outline and stick to it are stellar beings to be envied.)  I started with an idea for backstory and a character. 


    So do you wanna see a peek?  This is the raw, unedited, scene that I started with the other night. 


    "Jonathon Grace." The voice came from behind him. "And they say no man has ever been shot while washing dishes."


    The man at the sink paused for a moment then resumed wiping the cloth over the fork. "How did you find me."


    "It wasn’t easy. I’ll give you that." The man holding the gun waved it slightly to encompass the room. The kitchen dining/room would have been small for a family, but it was perfect for a single man. The small drop-leaf table served well enough for eating, and left room for a computer desk. "You’ve made a nice respectable little life for yourself. Too bad you weren’t content to let the past be the past. Obsession is a character flaw of the worst sort."


    "There’s something about having my best friend murdered that just pushed me over the edge, I guess." Jonathon put his hands back into the water. While he washed the glass, he looked into the window at the reflection of the man behind him.


    "I make it a point not to shoot people in the back. It makes it much harder for the police to decide that it was suicide."


    "That would be why you’re waiting for me to finish the dishes? It would be hard for them to believe that a man decided halfway through a chore that he’d rather kill himself than finish the job."


    "See that’s what I like about you. You understand things."


    "I don’t suppose you’d care to dry then."


    "Ah, I’d like to but then there would be fingerprints."


    "I see your point. . . ." Jonathon didn’t change his pace, but reached under the suds for the plate off which he’d eaten his dinner. The computer screen flicked black then relit with tropical fish swimming across the monitor. The appearance of the fish distracted the man with the gun for a second. When he glanced over at the screen, Jonathon whirled and threw the plate like a frisbee at the other man’s throat.


    The impact of the plate snapped the man’s head back and his gun arm flailed out for balance. The plate ricocheted to the floor and shattered. Before he regained his footing, the Jonathon tackled him knocking the gun from his hand. It spun sideways under the table. From his position on the floor the assassin rolled and dodged a blow aimed at his face. Both men scrambled to a crawling position reaching toward the gun.


    The assailant kicked out and caught Jonathon in the ribs. He grunted with pain but grabbed the pants leg and yanked. The assailant fell onto his stomach. He rolled and kicked back with his free heel opening a cut above his victim’s eye.


    Blood splattered over the floor and ran down his face. Jonathon shook his head and hung on to the pants leg, pulling his assailant back until he was almost on top of him. Another twist of leg and a third kick ripped the fabric from his grasp.


    When the assailant tried again to get the gun, Jonathon shoved him hard to the side. The assailant put his hand down on a piece of the broken plate. "Son of a bitch!" He tried to stand.


    A hand reached up and tugged hard on his shirt. He fell forward and struck his head on the edge of the tiled counter then sank silently to the floor.


    The Jonathon reached under the table for the gun. He picked it up between two fingers, keeping it turned away from himself.


    As he looked around, trying to decide what his next move should be. He heard a bump outside. The light switch was on the wall to his left, so he hit it plunging the room into darkness.


    "Girardeau?" a low voice called.


    The Jonathon moved away from the sound toward the back door.


    "Girardeau!?" the voice was a little louder.


    The door was only inches away. Jonathon opened it silently and slipped outside. His house was the southern part of a building that contained two townhouses. Circling up through his neighbor’s backyard, he came out to the street about 120 feet up from his front walk. An unfamiliar car was parked there next to the stand of trees separating his neighbor’s yard from the next one.


    He touched the hood. It was warm. He looked inside and saw the key still in the ignition. "Thank you, God, for stupid crooks." He started the car and backed up the street without turning the lights on. At the intersection he backed around and drove off into the night.


    Back at his house a third man was talking on a cell phone. "Girardeau is out…I don’t know, I was waiting outside…No, he only knows we were supposed to kill him. I never mentioned you, so he don’t know nothing about who hired us…I left the car in the street like you said…"


    He looked out the front window, "He’s gone."


    I had thought that the opening scene would be the murder of my character, and then the book would be about a nosy neighbor solving the puzzle.  But, then Jonathon Grace escaped - or was he allowed to escape?  Now, the story is going off in a wilder direction than I had expected.


    Total word count as of Wednesday 8:30 AM --- 9,367.

  • The word count continues to rise.  I have thought all day long that I wasn't getting much done, but I'm now at 7,904 - so I added about 1,500 words.  AND <drumroll> I finally have a dead guy!  It isn't the guy that I thought was going to be my victim, but now that there's a corpse involved I can let go some of my guilt for appropriating a category that my story didn't really fit. 

  • Redeeming the Time


    I have officially made up for my poor showing yesterday.  My total wordcount now stands at 6,478.  Whooo Hoooo!  Now that's not to say that the book is going exactly as I had envisioned.  My murder victim refuses to be killed.  He's fighting back in ways I hadn't planned.  But, I have him on the run ladies and gentlemen. 


    Since I spent my afternoon writing, I have not been around to visit your sites.  Bad me.  I will try to devote time to commenting over the next month, but don't give up on me if you don't hear much.  I WILL be reading.  But, it takes me a lot longer to come to your site and comment than it does to read your blogs in my SIR list. 


    I've set myself an intermediate goal with an intermediate reward.  If I have reached the 25,000 word mark by Midnight November 15, I'm making Fugitive buy me a banana split at Sonic.    And let me tell you, if I make that 50,000 mark by November 30 - I plan on making Tim spoil me rotten. 


    I copied and pasted the following snippets from the NaNoWriMo website primarily so that it will look like I put a lot of work into writing a LOOONG blog and you'll all be impressed with my prodigious output.    But, also because I know you guys.  I read your sites.  I laugh and cry and get grossed out by the things you say, because you say them well.  You have me engaged in your journalling.  I'm hoping that you will read these bits and be encouraged - motivated - to climb on board and write your own 50,000 words. 


    What is NaNoWriMo?



    • Valuing enthusiasm and perseverance over talent and craft, NaNoWriMo is a novel-writing program for everyone who has thought fleetingly about writing a novel but has been scared away by the time and effort involved.

    • Because of the limited writing window, the ONLY thing that matters in NaNoWriMo is output. It's all about quantity, not quality. The kamikaze approach forces you to lower your expectations, take risks, and write on the fly.

    • Make no mistake: You will be writing a lot of crap. And that's a good thing. By forcing yourself to write so intensely, you are giving yourself permission to make mistakes. To forgo the endless tweaking and editing and just create. To build without tearing down.

    If I'm just writing 50,000 words of crap, why bother? Why not just write a real novel later, when I have more time?


    There are three reasons.

    1) If you don't do it now, you probably never will. Novel writing is mostly a "one day" event. As in "One day, I'd like to write a novel." Here's the truth: 99% of us, if left to our own devices, would never make the time to write a novel. It's just so far outside our normal lives that it constantly slips down to the bottom of our to-do lists. The structure of NaNoWriMo forces you to put away all those self-defeating worries and START. Once you have the first five chapters under your belt, the rest will come easily. Or painfully. But it will come. And you'll have friends to help you see it through to 50k.

    2) Aiming low is the best way to succeed. With entry-level novel writing, shooting for the moon is the surest way to get nowhere. With high expectations, everything you write will sound cheesy and awkward. Once you start evaluating your story in terms of word count, you take that pressure off yourself. And you'll start surprising yourself with a great bit of dialogue here and a ingenious plot twist there. Characters will start doing things you never expected, taking the story places you'd never imagined. There will be much execrable prose, yes. But amidst the crap, there will be beauty. A lot of it.

    3) Art for art's sake does wonderful things to you. It makes you laugh. It makes you cry. It makes you want to take naps and go places wearing funny pants. Doing something just for the hell of it is a wonderful antidote to all the chores and "must-dos" of daily life. Writing a novel in a month is both exhilarating and stupid, and we would all do well to invite a little more spontaneous stupidity into our lives.

    Why 50,000 words? Isn't that more of a novella?
    Our experiences over the past three years show that 50,000 is a difficult but doable goal, even for people with full-time jobs. The length makes it a short novel. We don't use the word "novella" because it doesn't seem to impress people the way "novel" does.

    Did you know there is a group in Vancouver that writes novels in a weekend?
    Yes, and they are fools. Everyone knows that any deep and lasting work of art takes an entire month to make.

    Why are you doing this? What do you get out of it?
    NaNoWriMo is all about the magical power of deadlines. Give someone a goal and a goal-minded community and miracles are bound to happen. Pies will be eaten at amazing rates. Alfalfa will be harvested like never before. And novels will be written in a month.

    Part of the reason we organize NaNoWriMo is just to get a book written. We love the fringe benefits accrued to novelists. For one month out of the year, we can stew and storm, and make a huge mess of our apartments and drink lots of coffee at odd hours. And we can do all of these things loudly, in front of people. As satisfying as it is to reach deep within yourself and pull out an unexpectedly passable work of art, it is equally (if not more) satisfying to be able to dramatize the process at social gatherings.

    But that artsy drama window is woefully short. The other reason we do NaNoWriMo is because the glow from making big, messy art, and watching others make big, messy art, lasts for a long, long time. The act of sustained creation does bizarre, wonderful things to you. It changes the way you read. And changes, a little bit, your sense of self. We like that.


     

  • The Spiritual Discipline of Study


    People who follow a spiritual path soon encounter the discipline of meditation.  Whether you are Christian, Jew, Buddhist or New Age in your orientation, meditation forms an integral part of the spiritual life.


    The same person who learns early to value meditation, may inadvertently pick up the idea that study is the anti-spiritual occupation of those who disdain spiritual life.  I wrote earlier this week about the opposition of a certain mindset that claims to be scientific but masks a philosophical opposition to spirituality.


    I'm very interested in learning all I can about the arguments of those who oppose spirituality.  I learned early in my life and hold firmly to the belief that "those who do not know their opponent's arguments do not completely understand their own."  For this reason I study.  If you've been reading my site for very long, you know I love to study books.  I often have multiple volumes awaiting my attention, and in the past year I've probably read close to 200 books.  (Tim is grateful that I only had to purchase 195 of them.  )


    One thing I resisted for a long time was the awareness that there exists a vast chasm between reading and studying.  I thought that because I could and did read the words on the page, that I was studying the book.  I didn't really learn to study until I was out of school (including college) and asked the first important question of my life.  It doesn't matter now what that question was.  The value of the question came in what I learned through trying to answer it.


    I learned how to interract with books.  I was used to a system in which a teacher gave me a syllabus, I read the material and to the best of my ability "learned" the content of the material.  It wasn't until I found myself in a position with no teacher, no syllabus, no suggested reading to find the content that would provide the answer that I learned to really study. 


    The first thing I had to learn is interpretation.  Once I understood what the author said, I had to figure out what s/he meant.  There is no such thing as "just the facts."  Every fact is only a fact in relation to other facts.  Every fact has value.  It may be a fact that "3 out of 5 dentists surveyed recommend Trident to their patients who chew gum."  But, interpretation demands that I ask "so what."


    The second thing I learned was that understanding and interpreting the content only laid the foundation for citiquing the content.  How many dentists were surveyed to start with?  Were the dentists who were surveyed being paid by Trident?  Did the dentists recommend Trident only as the lesser of two evils?  Many, many facts have limited or no value whatsoever in terms of answering the questions with which they are associated.  Criticism has earned a harsh reputation.  At one time I saw it as the practice of contentious skepticism.  I thought a critic was one who couldn't say anything positive about anything.  (And there are some critics who deserve this label.)  But, honest criticism means nothing more or less than thorough analysis.  I wanted to skip to the end part and pronounce my judgment (good book/bad book) without doing the analysis.  If the book tended to support an idea I already held, by golly, that was a goooood book.  If the book challenged one of my pet notions, that book was worthless.


    Once I learned to put the critique in it's proper order, the value I placed on a book had less and less to do with whether it offered a viewpoint with which I agreed.  The book that taught me this lesson most emphatically is a volume of essays called "Recovering Biblical Manhood and Womanhood".  (The blue book)  I don't agree with the conclusions of a single contributor in the entire volume.  But, whereas 15 years ago I would have said that made the book a "baaaaaaad book."  This is one of the most valuable books I own.  Through the eyes of people firmly committed to a proposition that I find to be wrongheaded and abhorent, I learned the underlying why that led them to draw their conclusions.


    My experience with the "blue book" led me to reread and reevaluate some of my previous favorites, and what I saw in them led me to put them in a pile for donation to a good cause.  Just because an author draws a conclusion that I like, doesn't mean that s/he has anything valuable to offer.  Many of the books that agreed with my views contained poor logic, had a tone that was derogatory to opposing views, and were condescending to the reader. 


    In addition to learning how to interpret and evaluate books, I learned to bring experience, other books and live discussion to bear on the material I study.  If I read a book about a tragedy for which I have no frame of reference, my understanding of that material will never equal that of one who's been there.  In addition, personal experience has led me to cast a quizzical glance at many well argued conclusions.  If a conclusion contradicts my personal experience, I have basis for asking a lot of questions about how s/he came to that conclusion. 


    Many books have almost no meaning outside the context of other books.  Earlier this year I reread the Federalist Papers.  If I hadn't read the US Constitution AND the Articles of Confederation (and  kept copies of both those documents at hand while I was reading the words of Jay, Madison and Hamilton) I might as well have been reading a cereal box for all the good it would have done for my understanding.  I know some Christians who claim that the Old Testament has less value than the New so they don't study it.  How these people could believe they understand the New Testament books outside the context of the Old Testament boggles my mind.


    Alexander Pope says, "There is no study that is not capable of delighting us after a little application to it."  The Spiritual Discipline of Study is key to promoting continued growth in wisdom, decreased pride, and inward stability.  Great teachers of all the wisdom traditions have bemoaned the tendency of man to be tossed about in the valley of decision, to waiver between two minds, and to chase endlessly after the mystical promise of knowledge without study. 


    I've heard it argued that the "crime" of Adam and Eve was in attempting to gain knowledge.  I think that the true nature of the crime was not in the attempt but in the method.  Instead of walking the long path to wisdom, they tried a shortcut.  But, in the end, there is no shortcut.  We have to study.


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    The difficult is that which can be done immediately, the impossible that which takes a little longer.  George Santayana


    Apparently, it is difficult to begin writing a book but impossible to work on it with the family around.    Yes, today was Saturday, the day of the week that it would have seemed most probable that I would get much work done.  My word count today has gone up, but I only wrote about 1/3 as much as yesterday.  Thank God I was off to a good start. 

  • Friday Fragments


    We had to make a quick trip to the store yesterday afternoon for last minute costume adjustment needs.  The kids were excited with all the Halloween hoopla, and not much inclined to be calm, cool or collected.  I was pleased that they had a shopping cart available with "big kid" seats so I could strap 'em in. 


    Tucker's hands and feet seemed to be everywhere as I pushed the boys through Walmart.  His middle was buckled in and his seat was seated, but he was a wild man.  I warned him a dozen times to settle down, that he was going to cause an accident.


    And as I said it came to pass.  An elderly woman was pushing her cart toward us, and just as she came even with us, Tucker chose that moment to swing his head out to the side.  Of course, he hit the woman. 


    I apologized and then turned to my offspring.  "Tucker, what do you say?"


    "Don't try this at home?"


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    The rules of the NaNoWriMo are simple.  You just write.  They ask that you try to write at least 2,000 words a day.  In this way, by the end of the month you've completed 50,000-60,000 words which is a book.  There isn't any big prize for completing - you just get the encouragement and motivation to keep at it.  I sat down last night (after I wrote the poem below) and wrote my first paragraphs.  It was a heady experience.  I'm flushed with the excitement of "actually DOING it." 


    The short paragraphs I wrote last night totaled up to 500 words.  Whooo, Hoooo!  Today I've added more and more.  I'm up to 3172 words now.  I'm sure that as I get further into the story it will go slower as I have to make decisions about plot points that I haven't worked out yet.  But so far, so happy!


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    Tim entered the annual Chili contest at work yesterday.  He decided this year to go for the "hottest" category.  He pureed tobasco peppers, cayenne, onions, and some secret ingredients.  I didn't taste it, but the fumes made my eyes water from the next room.  He didn't win.  I say he was robbed. 


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    I am suffering a disappointment today.  We had hoped to refinance our home at a lower interest rate.  In fact, my November trip to Arkansas has been delayed so we can do this.  The loan is approved, the interest rate is appealing, but the terms are unacceptable to me.  We have less than 20% equity in our house, probably due to some inflation of the actual value of the lot we purchased to build our house on four years ago.  We paid what the guy asked because we really like the place.  We are on the very back end of a gravel road.  We have 6.5 acres with stands of trees on a rolling hillside.  It's quiet, it's isolated from traffic, and it's beautiful.  But, apparently it isn't worth the price we paid for it according to the people who did the appraisal a couple weeks ago.


    Ok, my bad.  I overpaid for the property.


    The bottom line is that the refinancing company would only do the loan if we added mortgage insurance to it.  Nope, I won't do it.  I have a loan now that has no mortgage insurance requirement.  Even a lower interest rate doesn't offset $100 a month for something that is of no benefit to me.  My perspective is that if the company doesn't want to loan me the money, don't do the loan - but the whole mortgage insurance thing (in my opinion) is an unethical way of charging interest (anytime I have to pay someone for the privilege of borrowing their money, it's interest) and calling it by another name.  And so they lost my business.  But, I am disappointed.


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    On the good things front.  I am now free to leave town.  I'm headed to Arkansas for the next month.  I'll be visiting with my parents, and pitching in a helping hand.  I try to go to Arkansas several times a year to assist my Mom with seasonal cleaning and the time has come for the next trip.  Fugitive lives next door, so our kids play together while she and I ... play together.


    My schedule there will not be essentially different from my schedule here.  I'll still be able to blog from my Dad's computer, and I'm taking my laptop to continue my novel writing.


    Have a Great Weekend!